Here i am again... Having to leave for work shortly, blogging into the wee hours of the morning. This is becoming quite the bad habit. Anyways... I love snow. I don't love having to pick up my co-worker early and drive her to work, but you know, its nice to be able to help I suppose. I finally have been able to use my 4 wheel drive, and let me tell you it is AMAZING. I love it. I really do. Work has been stresfull lately, lots of packages... lots. I might get laid off after the holliday season, thats the economy for ya... and let me tell you, that would totally suck... Im going to visit my grandparents in longview tomorrow, I enjoy spending time with them, so hopefully i dont die on the way. Life is going pretty well right now... Its almost christmas which is awesome. New year is starting, also awesome. With the new year, i have re-commited to my fitness goals. I want to get down to 215-218 lbs. at 12% body fat. I lost 70 pounds a little over a year ago, and gained about 30 back.... So i need to lose that 30 and get LEAN. I understand i will never be ripped, but thats ok, I just want to be big, with some deep cuts and defenition... and have less belly. So wish me luck on that, and if you see me eating sweets, or things that are not good for me, tell me to stop. Ok that aside... I heard this defenition once for "Stupid" which i thought was really clever "Doing the same thing expecting different results." And lately I have been really stupid. The exact thing i am doing I won't go into detail about, but its a slippery slope. I have been down this road before, and every time, i am let down... in a big way. Yet every time i do the same thing, and expect things to be different.... I wish i could stop, i really do, but i cant. Seriously. I try and try, and somehow i always end up right back where i started. Its getting old. Stupid feelings, why cant they just leave me the hell alone? anyways time for work. Good day all! and Happy Hollidays!
3 comments:
oh mikey.... we are all stupid in one way or another. i am stupid in lots of ways.
but to clarify - would you like me to save you some love infused deep dish brownie or not? ala mode?
I think our weaknesses or the stupid things we do again and again are things we carry throughout life. They don't ever go away. We just learn how to conquer them. And even then maybe the lessons learned while trying are what we needed the most.
who knows...
Merry Christmas Mike! You are an awesome friend.
btw. Food isn't a weakness or a stupid thing. It is a necessity. So eat up. :)
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